well that time has come again to begin a new year. i'm excited, but a little apprehensive to be completely honest. there is always so much uncertainty....even though i trust that everything will all work and out and be great, there is always that fear in the back of your mind. though i am usually a lover of change, lately i have been a little shy, though i have no real reason to be. i think maybe it is largely due to overwhelming amounts of stress.....
tonight i shall spend the evening with my man, doing nothing but enjoying each other, i am rather excited since this is a new opportunity for us. and we are loving it. i am sure that this new year will bring us many of these great opportunities since he is now a resident of the desert once again. last night we went on a rare date night. it was glorious, even in all of its goofy simplicity. he is a very sweet and thoughtful guy. i am very lucky that is for sure.
though i am very unsure about what 2011 will bring us, i do know that we will make it through it and enjoy most of every minute of it. i have not hated 2010, though there was much unpleasantness in parts of it, there were also so many wonderful things about it. but 2011 is looking much better and brighter....so far anyway lol.
i am excited about the potential for great things in 2011, there will be much opportunity to grow in business and hopefully better our futures. it will not be an easy road that is for sure, since there will be much financial burden due to our current situation, but i think it will prove to be a great learning opportunity and many life lessons will be shared and hopefully overcome.
i'm not one for new years resolutions usually, i feel that you don't need a calender change over to a new year to have change for the better, but i do have a few things that i would like to improve on, and the first of the year seems like a great place to start those things. some of these things include, better blogging, a positive attitude (which is proving to be a difficult one amongst the stress and annoyances of late, esp. the upcoming wedding situations which i don't want to deal with cause i'm feeling like its all very much unfair at the moment even though i shouldn't), more work, better saving, more learning, going to school and completing classes, finding new ways to love, spending lots of time with my man, keeping things very clean and organized, being better about trusting in the Lord and finding new ways to let things go. i'm sure there will be many more things i find to work on, but those are standing out most in my mind at the moment. i would say i should also work on building better relationships with others, but right now that is a issue that has left me rather burned or scarred and i'm not particularly interested in that right at this moment, maybe with a little bit of time i will feel like that is doable again.
i hope everyone has a safe and happy new year, i hope new opportunities will come, dreams will come true, much love will find you, and that there will be more happiness than tears. i love the people in my life and cannot wait to share the new adventures of a new year with all of those who are sharing this crazy journey that is life.
Happy New Year everyone! 2011 here we come!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
matching merry christmas
here are a few photos of me and my grinch! oh how i love him and his goofy self :)
Holiday Craziness
okay so i apologized for my lack of postings before with the full intention of having time to update said blog.....yeah well we know how well that worked out for me. ha. december is such a crazy month with all of the holdiay things going on, and on top of all of it i had work, made an emergency trip to the good ol birmingham, moved josh into his new place, wrapped 3000 gifts, baby sat my favorite kiddos, stressed out over everything under the sun, and then came Christmas. so let's recap my last month-i will try to keep it short, but no promises can be made as i have a lot to say about this crazy month.
so at the very beginning of the month, my love was struggling with the decision to keep playing football yet again, he's never been in love with it like soccer, and he has wanted several times to give it up and come home, but he always toughs it out and stays, convincing himself that he'll love it with all manner of creative excuses, some of which made me laugh. but this time he decided he really was going to come home. i will let you imagine how that went down........so anyway after all of THAT was over, dad and avery and i drove our buns to birmingham to pick up the man. somehow we managed to cram an entire dorm into a mini van and a g35. we are packing geniuses. the trip was A BLAST (minus the ridiculously long 15 hour days of driving), avery and dad were hysterical, and then adding josh to the mix made it even funnier. we ate lots of yummy southern food, said goodbye to our friends, nearly died at the vulcan from slipping on ice, froze our buns off, laughed until we cried, and of course drove until our butts were numb from sitting so long. all in all, it was great, despite the less than lovely circumstances under which we were coming. i will definitely miss birmingham and the new friends i made there, but we have decided we will come back to visit often (and after the little icy episode, i think i'm rather grateful that i won't be living there after all.....) once we got joshua home we moved him into his dad's with all of his stuff and he settled in quite quickly. we have had a blast since he's been home-minus the 30 minute drive part and me having to always find a car since josh is currently using mine full time.
the week before christmas was chaos...as usual. it was mostly enjoyable though we had some fairly large stressors in there.... on sunday we went to church and had lunch with bachan (josh's grandmother on his dad's side) and then we went to zoolights with sammy and his girlfriend jen. it was interesting. and the weather was nice, like 70 degrees nice lol. on monday we had dinner with Chris and Jihae and the kiddos. love em. they are superly awesome, made us feel a little better about our current situation too, which is always nice when you have good peeps to talk to. they are great siblings even though they are not officially mine. the rest of the week was just busy with cookies and family and people visiting and work and present wrapping. Christmas eve josh and i dressed in matching Grinch shirts for our family parties, first his dad's and then my mom's. Christmas day we ditched the shirts and kindly wore nice church clothes, i'm bummed i don't have a picture tho because we did look rather dashing. Christmas morning was great with my family and then we headed off to the watson family christmas. it was good, but we were super tired and stressed after, so it was nice to be able to just relax. i'm glad the kiddos liked their gifts tho, they are super fun to shop for and so hard not to spoil!
oh and i almost forgot, joshua bear bought us a red wii for christmas, it is pretty cool if i do say so myself. it is currently living in his room at his dad's as i have no house or place to put it and we already have a wii in the family room, but one day it will have a place of its own when i have a place of my own....one day.
things seem to be winding down a bit, which is good, i'm looking forward to the new year even though it feels like it is coming too quickly. i am ready to leave this year behind though. it has been nice, but a little too stressful lately and i'm ready to move past that. however, i am not looking forward to the next 12 weddings we must attend, and NO that is not an exaggeration. we know 9 couples who have been engaged in the last week and a half and we already had 3 other weddings to attend starting next week. so blah on all that. even though i should be congratulating all of them. in light of our current situation and the fact that once again we will have to wait because people are having issues and the fact that they are in complete control of the situation i'm rather bah humbug about anyone else getting married. i shouldn't be, but i am. especially those who have dated approximately 6 months and are getting married in 5 or 6 months. we know 4 of those. they seem slightly unfair. tho that is just probably my bad attitude talking since EVERYTHING seems rather unfair at the moment. hopefully things will be brighter soon.
so at the very beginning of the month, my love was struggling with the decision to keep playing football yet again, he's never been in love with it like soccer, and he has wanted several times to give it up and come home, but he always toughs it out and stays, convincing himself that he'll love it with all manner of creative excuses, some of which made me laugh. but this time he decided he really was going to come home. i will let you imagine how that went down........so anyway after all of THAT was over, dad and avery and i drove our buns to birmingham to pick up the man. somehow we managed to cram an entire dorm into a mini van and a g35. we are packing geniuses. the trip was A BLAST (minus the ridiculously long 15 hour days of driving), avery and dad were hysterical, and then adding josh to the mix made it even funnier. we ate lots of yummy southern food, said goodbye to our friends, nearly died at the vulcan from slipping on ice, froze our buns off, laughed until we cried, and of course drove until our butts were numb from sitting so long. all in all, it was great, despite the less than lovely circumstances under which we were coming. i will definitely miss birmingham and the new friends i made there, but we have decided we will come back to visit often (and after the little icy episode, i think i'm rather grateful that i won't be living there after all.....) once we got joshua home we moved him into his dad's with all of his stuff and he settled in quite quickly. we have had a blast since he's been home-minus the 30 minute drive part and me having to always find a car since josh is currently using mine full time.
the week before christmas was chaos...as usual. it was mostly enjoyable though we had some fairly large stressors in there.... on sunday we went to church and had lunch with bachan (josh's grandmother on his dad's side) and then we went to zoolights with sammy and his girlfriend jen. it was interesting. and the weather was nice, like 70 degrees nice lol. on monday we had dinner with Chris and Jihae and the kiddos. love em. they are superly awesome, made us feel a little better about our current situation too, which is always nice when you have good peeps to talk to. they are great siblings even though they are not officially mine. the rest of the week was just busy with cookies and family and people visiting and work and present wrapping. Christmas eve josh and i dressed in matching Grinch shirts for our family parties, first his dad's and then my mom's. Christmas day we ditched the shirts and kindly wore nice church clothes, i'm bummed i don't have a picture tho because we did look rather dashing. Christmas morning was great with my family and then we headed off to the watson family christmas. it was good, but we were super tired and stressed after, so it was nice to be able to just relax. i'm glad the kiddos liked their gifts tho, they are super fun to shop for and so hard not to spoil!
oh and i almost forgot, joshua bear bought us a red wii for christmas, it is pretty cool if i do say so myself. it is currently living in his room at his dad's as i have no house or place to put it and we already have a wii in the family room, but one day it will have a place of its own when i have a place of my own....one day.
things seem to be winding down a bit, which is good, i'm looking forward to the new year even though it feels like it is coming too quickly. i am ready to leave this year behind though. it has been nice, but a little too stressful lately and i'm ready to move past that. however, i am not looking forward to the next 12 weddings we must attend, and NO that is not an exaggeration. we know 9 couples who have been engaged in the last week and a half and we already had 3 other weddings to attend starting next week. so blah on all that. even though i should be congratulating all of them. in light of our current situation and the fact that once again we will have to wait because people are having issues and the fact that they are in complete control of the situation i'm rather bah humbug about anyone else getting married. i shouldn't be, but i am. especially those who have dated approximately 6 months and are getting married in 5 or 6 months. we know 4 of those. they seem slightly unfair. tho that is just probably my bad attitude talking since EVERYTHING seems rather unfair at the moment. hopefully things will be brighter soon.
Monday, December 13, 2010
2 years
Yes, I do realize that this is december 13th and this post is 3 weeks late, but it has been a little crazy- so this post is dedicated to my love. On december 1st we officially hit the 2 year mark. And its kinda unbelievable to be honest! This has certainly been a crazy few years with all sorts of ups and downs. But they have all been so worth it! He is definitely pretty awesome to have such an awesome man. I am so very lucky to have him in my life, still don't know how I got him, but I love that I do :) thank you joshua zahn for an awesome two years, and I can't wait for many many more! I love you!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
december is here, and nearly gone.
i super apologize for my lack of postings. to say the last week has been chaotic is an understatement. you have no idea. i don't think i've ever been more stressed, emotional, or just plain freaked out ever in my life. i'm rather suckish to be around, the bubbly christmas spirit is not with me this week, but i know it will be back soon. i have several things i would like to share, but they each are entirely different subjects so i think it would be best to follow up this post with several others so as not to be a jumbled confused mess! so i will be back....um shortly i hope! after i just finish a chaotic mess of paperwork! xoxo
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